Everything has been pretty much on track recently. Besides that it is assignment in and out almost everyday. Sleep so little everyday =.= and funny man I so blur cause of it. Like example talk to my friend wanted to ask him about what headings he put on his essay lol I asked him what subtitle he put. Then it took me awhile and I realized opss. Everyone around doing the same as me has gotten sick. Thank God for my supplements I am still not sick. Anyways if you've been taking supplements and don't feel a difference haha I know why.
Another 4 more assignments to go .......Two on mon 2 on friday swt. Wish me Luck.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Saturday, April 5, 2008
An Outcry
Well if you guys been wondering why I've been missing or rather quiet lately cause I've been thinking a lot. I've been having pretty bad things happening to me difficulty after difficulty. Wow have to admit it was pretty challenging. I guess God put me under a test.
I realized that I've done something wrong. I forget that I'm also human. In my own understanding I always try to portray that I'm strong and have no problems. Every time people have a problem I try to be there. Offer them what ever I can. When my friends are down I tell them jokes and put big smile on my face. I always try to be strong for them and give the positive aura no matter what because I feel I could carry the burden on my shoulder and let God carry it all. But u know why I say I'm wrong? Because when I keep doing that people always think that I can't feel hurt or I don't have any problems. Plus I'm pretending and it is just not me. Then, nobody ever comes to ask me whether I'm alright or anything cause I'm already on the strong list. You'll be surprise when I tell some people I'm struggling with my studies as of now - nobody believes it. Well everyone has a limit, so once I reach a limit, I breakdown and when I do nobody knows or tries to find out or rather nobody really cares. In certain cases I feel really hurt - my close friends also don't bother but the ones I didn't expect they do. Anyways why I feel hurt also? because I did this test in church example (not today). If I keep quiet and don't approach anyone to talk or start a conversation, nobody will come to me to talk. Have any of you experienced this?
Orh ya some of you asked why I always so much energy wan - the answer is actually I super tired but then the more tired I am, the more I force myself to be energetic thats why u see me like siao wan how come ppl all so tired I still jumping around. Then when I go home I drop dead lol really!! Our brain and body is really awesome actually if you set your mind to doing it you definitely can do it. Go ahead and try. Why I like running it is a good example. When you run after a while you feel the tiredness, pain and the want to stop. Instead you force yourself to continue and guess what you really reach the finish line. Determination my friends.
In the bible, I always learn that we should love each other as much as you love yourself. I try so hard to do it everyday because every time I do it I hurt myself instead. Now what struggles I'm facing for example having loads of assignments + loads of problems - minor and major + short of money + problem sleeping and etc. Example past few days sweat got nightmare - I can't be contactable cause my phone is not functioning well and I have not reloaded yet, my house phone is not working, my internet was down (how I'm goin to do my work ?) grrr so stress. I have problems sleeping and also this week I been attacked by the devil. Please pray for me ya Thanks.
I'm proud of myself in some areas though. Like example, during the week I was really in bad mood and everyone around me was busy cursing cursing, I really felt like cursing at that time also but I didn't, I controlled myself in the end I got rewarded. (I do not curse. I feel a lot of people unintentionally curse because they hear it everyday, it is like poison. But I believe if you keep hearing it eventually you'll say it then you'll have to kick the habit away again) Even how sad, busy or what ever I still went to church today and again I got rewarded. Today Ps. Saw spoke that Christians today face problems and challenge of the world. He said do not get envious over people who done wrong things for their own benefit. Simple example is exams, someone may cheat and become first in the class. Are you going to cheat also? Are you going to stand doing the right thing even if things goes wrong?
In Acts 17:5 it says we are placed here for a reason. Alright I'm going to ask you some questions. I challenge you to think carefully and truthfully on the questions I'm about to ask. How do you define yourself? Do you define yourself by the car you drive? Do you define yourself by what you have? your status? the size of your house? Well all of us know that this is all superficial and we can't bring it to our grave but I guess all of us always forget about what is the most important = the content of your character. Why I say I was rewarded because he said this "We should not be tired of doing good as God will not forget the times you did good and he will definitely bless you". Heard it before but this time when I hear it, it had this tingling in my body that made me feel somewhat satisfied.
So guys if you are on the fence of doing the right or wrong thing, I'll advice you to stand strong on your ground and do the right thing. Doing the right thing might be painful, it might take a while for you to do it, it might also be hard but if you do it I can definitely say you will be rewarded. U might not get your reward today or tomorrow but assure yourself that God keeps track of the good you have done.
I realized that I've done something wrong. I forget that I'm also human. In my own understanding I always try to portray that I'm strong and have no problems. Every time people have a problem I try to be there. Offer them what ever I can. When my friends are down I tell them jokes and put big smile on my face. I always try to be strong for them and give the positive aura no matter what because I feel I could carry the burden on my shoulder and let God carry it all. But u know why I say I'm wrong? Because when I keep doing that people always think that I can't feel hurt or I don't have any problems. Plus I'm pretending and it is just not me. Then, nobody ever comes to ask me whether I'm alright or anything cause I'm already on the strong list. You'll be surprise when I tell some people I'm struggling with my studies as of now - nobody believes it. Well everyone has a limit, so once I reach a limit, I breakdown and when I do nobody knows or tries to find out or rather nobody really cares. In certain cases I feel really hurt - my close friends also don't bother but the ones I didn't expect they do. Anyways why I feel hurt also? because I did this test in church example (not today). If I keep quiet and don't approach anyone to talk or start a conversation, nobody will come to me to talk. Have any of you experienced this?
Orh ya some of you asked why I always so much energy wan - the answer is actually I super tired but then the more tired I am, the more I force myself to be energetic thats why u see me like siao wan how come ppl all so tired I still jumping around. Then when I go home I drop dead lol really!! Our brain and body is really awesome actually if you set your mind to doing it you definitely can do it. Go ahead and try. Why I like running it is a good example. When you run after a while you feel the tiredness, pain and the want to stop. Instead you force yourself to continue and guess what you really reach the finish line. Determination my friends.
In the bible, I always learn that we should love each other as much as you love yourself. I try so hard to do it everyday because every time I do it I hurt myself instead. Now what struggles I'm facing for example having loads of assignments + loads of problems - minor and major + short of money + problem sleeping and etc. Example past few days sweat got nightmare - I can't be contactable cause my phone is not functioning well and I have not reloaded yet, my house phone is not working, my internet was down (how I'm goin to do my work ?) grrr so stress. I have problems sleeping and also this week I been attacked by the devil. Please pray for me ya Thanks.
I'm proud of myself in some areas though. Like example, during the week I was really in bad mood and everyone around me was busy cursing cursing, I really felt like cursing at that time also but I didn't, I controlled myself in the end I got rewarded. (I do not curse. I feel a lot of people unintentionally curse because they hear it everyday, it is like poison. But I believe if you keep hearing it eventually you'll say it then you'll have to kick the habit away again) Even how sad, busy or what ever I still went to church today and again I got rewarded. Today Ps. Saw spoke that Christians today face problems and challenge of the world. He said do not get envious over people who done wrong things for their own benefit. Simple example is exams, someone may cheat and become first in the class. Are you going to cheat also? Are you going to stand doing the right thing even if things goes wrong?
In Acts 17:5 it says we are placed here for a reason. Alright I'm going to ask you some questions. I challenge you to think carefully and truthfully on the questions I'm about to ask. How do you define yourself? Do you define yourself by the car you drive? Do you define yourself by what you have? your status? the size of your house? Well all of us know that this is all superficial and we can't bring it to our grave but I guess all of us always forget about what is the most important = the content of your character. Why I say I was rewarded because he said this "We should not be tired of doing good as God will not forget the times you did good and he will definitely bless you". Heard it before but this time when I hear it, it had this tingling in my body that made me feel somewhat satisfied.
So guys if you are on the fence of doing the right or wrong thing, I'll advice you to stand strong on your ground and do the right thing. Doing the right thing might be painful, it might take a while for you to do it, it might also be hard but if you do it I can definitely say you will be rewarded. U might not get your reward today or tomorrow but assure yourself that God keeps track of the good you have done.
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